It has been a while since I wrote, maybe more than a year? When the doctors informed me that the cancer has spread to my chest (2 more tumors) and I didn’t have much time left, we decided to move nearer to my son and granddaughter, rest of my family. What was the use of living for a short time but far away from the loved ones? My husband sold his business, I quit my job and we moved to Stockholm’s suburbs. New doctors, new medicines, new neighbours, and looking for a new job at my age and my health situation wasn’t easy. I couldn’t lie about my health conditions, it was unethical and unjustified. I was invited to quite interesting job interviews but as soon as I mentioned my cancer stage 4 and that it has spread, too, the tone changed and they thanked me for my time. I thanked them for their time and wished them luck. Then I decided to become a interpreter/translator in order to work when I am feeling ok and able to work.
Why do I want so badly to work? Because these terrible deceases make you selfish in a way. You concentrate on your coming death, your illness and your time. Interpreting helps you to see world from other perspectives and conditions. I think it has made me a better person. I usually interpret for asylum seekers or lawyers, prisoners or doctors. I have come in contact with people that needed a calm voice to listen to them and translate for the authorities what they said without Judgement. Just my voice often helped them to stay positive, many said to me afterwards.
Life hasn’t become a beautiful movie but I am content that we have been able to live up to our dreams. To create a beautiful relationship with our grandchild, to meet our beloved family and friends more often despite the economy. You know I won’t change my life for a minute. You never know, maybe instead I won’t have the same parents or sister, brothers, husband, grandchild, friends and the rest of extended family, lol. Every step of this life has made me the person I am and I am quite content. Death doesn’t scare me but just reminds me to appreciate more my life, now.